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Saturday, April 17, 2010
Here to blog, i am getting lazy to blog.but i stil doesnt want my blog to die like that. School is reopening in less than 48 hours. Timetable was ok, except for that tuesday's 2 hours lesson. Everyone in my class do not have lessons on that day except for me ): Going to appeal on monday morning, hopefully it's successful. My 2 month holiday is over. To me, are just days of resting and watching shows. Think a lot these fews days, of my life. What should i do in the future? I am studying things that i an not interested. But a lot of people keep telling me that just get a diploma and can find a job. At least next time will get a starting pay of at least $1800. But my mind was thinking only $1800? i think i was expecting too much from my future. Nowaday, problem arise in my family because of financial. But i coulnt do anything, what can i do? Working as part-timer just to earn that few $$ ? I was talking with my mother just now, should i be a actor/singer to earn money? and stop stuying now? Going for audition/competition? My mother said i just study hard can alrdy. But i think she just doesnt want me to think about it, even though she always say that not enough money.. hardly can survive.. all these things. So what you wan me to do? My brother had quitted school since like last year, he volunteered to work, like Wow! finally he can contribute something. Money money, why are money so important to us? I know it's important but sometimes because of tan mu xu rong. People wanted more money. I have changed a lot during this holiday. Wanyu told me that before, i guess i really changed to. From someone treated exterior objects as important as life till now as someone that could just stay at home all the time and feeling happy even without having it. the now Jessica prefers quiet events and just go school study and go home straight after it. that is my plan for this semester, saving money and studying hard, i know i can't get into any local university. i know that it is impossible. there is not a single glimpse of hope to get into the locals. Because of my yr 1's result. It totally makes me feel down when i talk about it, So studying in overseas university was my almost comfirmed choice after poly. Wanyu also wanted to go to overseas university, but i know her situation too, i hope she could save enough and i will help her too. this is what i know, cos i know she also wanted to go de. i post this because i really wanted to post it a few days ago. and this are my feelings so i dun need any comment. Stresses makes me grew some pimples on my face, ))): Heechul's smiles are the only things that liften my mood up. (: |